Sunday, May 31, 2015

365 Project - Day 212

Another Headshot Day is finished. I must say, the kids were more prepared today, now that we've been through this together a few times. I, however, was more tired. Unfortunately, we had the normal technical issues that cause delays and increase my anxiety levels, but another 3 hour session is in the books.

For today's photo ... the long awaited AppleWatch has finally arrived! This is truly Christmas in Summer. My son received this watch as a Christmas present knowing that it would take some time, but never imagining it would take as long as it did. When I showed him the shipping box, he ran around he house two times before sitting down down to actually open the box. I love my kids' excitement when they receive their heart's desire. They display an unabashed joy that I hope they will not lose as they grow up.

We talk a lot about gratitude and counting blessings, but this is more. And this crazy joy can be over material and spiritual or intangible things. It is exciting and explosive and all-consuming at the moment you receive it. If you think about joy deeply, however, pure joy is a result of overcoming disappointment, sorrow and/or adversities. We are elated because we have bested the very thing that has beaten us down. And, that is a reason to celebrate. I believe we increase our joy when we appreciate its source. It is a good thing to embrace the cause of our pain, allowing it's evacuation to both deepen and elevate our joy.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: It's Finally Here!



"When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy." Kahlil Gibran








EXIF: Nikon D7100
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Saturday, May 30, 2015

365 Project - Day 211

Tomorrow is Production Day for an upcoming show and that means Headshot Day for me. Only 45 kids and I have a respectable 3 hours in which to get the job done ;-)

I have been getting my tools and myself together, trying a few new tricks, pulling out my hair and turning some new hairs gray when things aren't coming together. Hey! It's all part of the growth process. The lovely Kyla served as a gracious model once again. Just before finishing up with her, I chose to take a few a portrait shots. This one is a bit in-between portrait and headshot. I needed to crop out the chair she was standing on! And this particular photo took under 5 minutes to edit - naturally she has no blemishes to remove. Basically whatever editing I did was just me messing around and killing time.

I read a professional photographer's blog the other day in which she discussed her nervousness before photo shoots, mentioning that other professionals share the same feelings of anxiety. What a relief! I find headshot sessions to be simultaneously exhilarating and nerve-wracking. I love doing them, but between fretting over preparations and managing through the rapid sessions, I am exhausted by the end. Not too dissimilar from my sales presentations. Even when clients were challenging or downright difficult, I enjoyed meeting with them. And, even when kids blink incessantly, cannot sit still or something goes wrong technically, I'm having a ball.

In either situation, I work hard to fully prepare and over deliver. I am a firm believer that you get what you give. Nature ensures this. If I want to be surrounded by greatness, therefore, I must deliver greatness. Let's keep it really simple: If I am kind, I will get kindness in return. The converse is true, of course, because "every act rewards itself." If I want a smile, I should offer a smile. Yes, this is the Golden Rule. Put it on steroids - assume that if you give far more than is expected, you will get far more than you can imagine! Try it for a week. I'm confident, you'll experience nature's course of events.

Blessings.

Today's Photo: Kyla's Portrait



"Do to others what you want them to do for you." Luke 6:31





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ISO 160
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Friday, May 29, 2015

365 Project - Day 210

I don't favor days when I take photos of a variety of different subjects. Selecting the best is difficult and often becomes a sentimental choice, rather than the day's best. This time, though, I am working hard to hone my skills and one of the best ways to do that is through still life exercises, hence today's selection.

“Creativity is intelligence having fun.” ~Albert Einstein

The good news is I get to play while I sharpen my skills. Well, it's not all play. Sorting out precise content and arrangement, managing the light and adapting all for the optimum photo is in constant flux. And, that can leave me perplexed, as I am today, when I have 2 similar still life photos and am faced with a final selection. Nevertheless, this is all part of the trial and error process of developing a strengthened talent. Every moment is worth it.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Still life with lemons #2 (#1 did not make the final cut!)



"Do you see someone skilled in their work? They will serve before kings; they will not serve before officials of low rank." Proverbs 22:29





EXIF: Nikon D7100
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Thursday, May 28, 2015

365 Project - Day 209

We went on a small family walk on Memorial Day. I told the family that there would be a short walk from the car to the park where there was a gazebo and nice flowers. I made it sound like a simple opportunity to get outside and have some fun. Ten minutes in, I repeatedly heard, "Mom, you said the distance was the length of a football field." Okay, I misjudged a little, but for goodness sake, these kids are rarely outdoors. They needed fresh air, sunshine and time away from their electronics. We needed time together as a family and to experience the gift of nature beyond our own garden.

I took them to Newtown's Holcombe Preserve. Every time we passed someone, my husband said, "Look! Other families go outside and hike." Oh bother. It is a beautiful location. I had been there by myself prior to breaking my leg and was anxious to get back. The photo below was taken along one of the trails. There are fantastic trails and beautiful trees on the grounds. I will admit to overdoing it - it was a slow walk back to the car, but a great day outside with the family.

“If, then, I were asked for the most important advice I could give, that which I considered to be the most useful to the men of our century, I should simply say: in the name of God, stop a moment, cease your work, look around you.” Leo Tolstoy

Whether with family, friends or alone in meditation, I hope you are making time to stop and simply enjoy God's gifts in your life.

Blessings.

Today's Photo: The Nature of His Gifts



"God gave us the gift of life; it is up to us to give ourselves the gift of living well." Voltaire







EXIF: Nikon D7100
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Wednesday, May 27, 2015

365 Project - Day 208

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” Ralph Waldo Emerson

This has long been one of my favorite quotes. Every sentence resonates. We must allow each sunset to be its own; settle the day. Feel good about what we have accomplished, though the day may not have been perfect. I am amused by Emerson's cold choice of "blunders and absurdities". We tend to focus on our mistakes as though monumental. Yet, we undoubtably all commit "blunders", and most of the time they creep up on us as neither intentional nor permanent. The good news is we can own our mistakes without making them who we are. The sun sets on both the good and the bad. Therefore, we start a new day fresh and free of that "nonsense" of yesterday!

Here's one of my perfect examples. Calla Lilies are my favorite flowers. They are beautiful, soft and strong. I was anxious to photograph single stems with a reflector since the afternoon sunlight is strong through our dining room window, casting harsh shadows. I was too lazy, however, to walk into another room to grab the remote trigger. So, I held the reflector in my left hand, awkwardly leaning into the frame while clicking the shutter button with my right. I checked the LCD screen, made adjustments and assumed everything was perfect.

I learned a lot. I am not as keen a multi-tasker as I might believe. Haste and lack of attention to details (like getting the remote), creates waste. And out of messes, rare beauty may still arise. When I processed the photos, nearly all showed camera shake. It took awhile for me to realize that I was the problem. I'm not sure why I thought I could hold a reflector and press the shutter without shaking the camera.

Roughly 5 photos do not show the camera shake as visibly as the full lot. That's disappointing, but I certainly learned my lesson. I managed to hold myself together to produce the first photo below. I needed to recover. So, I reshot the calla lilies the next day and added my redux below. I proved I was indeed the problem but I am also the solution. Failure is never final if you learn, grow and move on!

Best wishes!

Today's Photos: Calla Beauty and Calla Redux




"Whatever your circumstances are - whether good or bad - you need to know that God already knows about them, and He is working behind the scenes to arrange future events in your favor. Learn to trust Him." Joel Osteen







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ISO 160
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Tuesday, May 26, 2015

365 Project - Day 207

"Everyone ... is born with the privilege of being definite, but 98 out of every 100 people lose this privilege by sleeping on it." Napoleon Hill

This photo is for a new project I have underway. Unfortunately, I did not have a large enough space to create the perfect effect, but my son seemed to be pretty happy with his silhouette. It took quite an effort to fit the two of us, the lights and my camera into the roughly 6x8 space we had available. I ended up standing on a chair to get the shot. Not a safe option for a woman with a newly bionic leg. I need a few more photos to complete his portion of the project, but the two silhouettes we worked on are a good start. Frankly, any time, I can complete a photo shoot before he wears out and get a thumbs up and "that's cool," I will declare success!

The importance of this photo is the illustration of his talents with definiteness. I want him to look at this and envision his future with unwavering clarity. His goals are clear and his path has purpose. We are not designed to do everything well. We are, however, uniquely designed to do our own thing exceptionally well. And those unique gifts and talents are needed to improve the world.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Definite Purpose



"God has given each of us the ability to do certain things well." Romans 12:6







EXIF: Nikon D7100
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Monday, May 25, 2015

365 Project - Day 206

I am stunned at the sheer size of the regrowth of my bleeding heart plant. Last Spring I planted a 6" pot and after the never-ending winter, a 3' sprawl has grown in it's place. The plant has a large number of stems and is thriving. It's impressive.

One of the high scoring photographs during our photography club competition this week was of a bleeding heart plant. I typically see these plants beautifully photographed against a pristine white background. I chose to be different. Motivated by the competition photograph, I wanted to try the dark background to see if I could achieve a premium fine art look. I spent quite some time selecting just the right stem - I love the roller coaster look.

I'm happy with this attempt to be unique. While this will sound corny, I am reminded once again that when I try to be fully myself, different and unique, I embark on a journey filled with ups and downs, twists and turns. There are even a few spirals that may leave me hanging upside down, but in the end, I am always better for having been me. IMHO, the black background adds boldness and strength.

The hearts are particularly special today as my father-in-law is in ICU having difficulty breathing. An extra long stem of hearts to send strength and love to his heart.

Blessings.

Today's Photo: Strengthened Hearts



"Sing to him. sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts. Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice." 1Chronicle 9-10





EXIF: Nikon D7100
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Sunday, May 24, 2015

365 Project - Day 205

I have a headshot session for summer shows coming up in a week. So I once again tortured my sons into sitting for a few minutes of practice with me. I have to remind myself that these sessions are just about technique and not about art. My sons are not agreeable and the discussion normally goes something like this, "since you have no plans this afternoon, I have something I need you to do for me." "Oh no, oh no. Mom - not again. I have something I need to do. I don't want my picture taken, please mom, no. I just won't do it." To which I respond, "oh yes you will. I promise not to take more than a few minutes of your time." They then squirm, roll their eyes, make faces, slouch and cross their eyes while I take their photos. And again I remind myself, this was an exercise in technique.

For this exercise I was trying out 3 new tools: 1) the black (and typically unused) side of my white matte Hurleypro Proboard; 2) Paul C Buff 47" Octabox (which I was unable to use previously); 3) 2x PocketWizards with my Paul C Buff Einstein strobe (which I had been incapable of sorting out how to use heretofore). All 3 worked beautifully. I plan to use this set-up for the headshot session next weekend. The black background looks sharp and is so much easier to edit.

In the frame just preceding this one, my son is slouching and looking down with a grim expression. I told him I would take one more and the photograph would be perfect if he would sit up, cross his arms and look at me. We finished up on this shot. As I look at this photograph, think about his leaving for college and beginning his life as an adult, I have to remember that we have given him roots and soon he will exercise his wings. It is my greatest desire that he soar high and far, knowing that he always has a place to come for nourishment.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Swag!



"Your children are not your children.
They are sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls.
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit,
not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you,
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent
forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you
with his might that His arrows might go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves the bow that is stable."
Kahlil Gibran







EXIF: Nikon D7100
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Saturday, May 23, 2015

365 Project - Day 204

"I have four things to learn in life. To think clearly without hurry or confusion. To love everybody sincerely. To act in everything with the highest motives. To trust in God unhesitatingly." Albert Schweitzer

The Church of Saint Mary the Virgin is located on 46th Street in New York City, just a few quick steps away from Times Square. As my husband and I took a brief one block walk the other day, I nearly missed the church. He pointed it out while I was looking the other direction trying desperately to find an interesting photo op. We had a few minutes before we had to meet up with the choral group we were chaperoning, so we hurried up the steps and inside. The church is stunningly huge at 180 feet long. It is built in a lovely French gothic cathedral style modeled after the Sainte-Chapelle in Paris (one of the churches in the DaVinci Code).

Of course, we didn't have the time to be reverent and also properly scope out the church, take a tour, decide on the best angles for photos, etc. I only had time enough to quickly adjust my camera settings from the bright sunlight outside to the quiet, dimly lit interior and walk a few steps into the aisle to take my urgent photographs without disturbing those who needed of the peace and solitude of the church. I'm hoping the next time we are amongst the maddening crowds of Times Square, we're able to take a moment to sneak away to St. Mary's for a more intentional visit. It's hard to believe that we have missed this church during all previous Times Square trips.

The juxtaposition of this church is fascinating. I imagine it offers respite for those who are entangled in the day to day hustle and bustle of one of the craziest places in the world; peace to the deeply troubled; rest for the weary; rejuvenation for the downtrodden; renewal for the beaten. Though ours was not a spiritually awakened visit, I can still close my eyes and picture the few people in the pews and still feel the church's warmth.

To be sure, I would need such a place if I spent much time in Times Square. As I also think about the hurried adjustment to my camera, I am reminded that to experience the fullness of the presence of God, we must adjust ourselves. While He is with us as we rush through our days, if we want to find peace, strength, support and extra grace, then we must pause and shift to a quieter place where we can listen and receive those gifts from God.

Blessings.

Today's Photos: Saint Mary's Times Square




"Finally, brothers and sisters, rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you." 2 Corinthians 13:11






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Pic 2
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Friday, May 22, 2015

365 Project - Day 203

"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent." Victor Hugo

My children spend a good portion of their days with headphones in or over their ears. I don't get it. Are they trying to hear or not to hear? I suspect reality is a mix of both. As musicians and film and TV connoisseurs, it is possible they are also escaping into imaginary worlds created by the medium of the moment. And while I may find it annoying to see them with a cord constantly dangling from their ears, things could be far worse.

This old pair of headphones belongs to my husband and sits in the corner of our music / art room. They may be his headphones from his teen years as part of his family's garage band, Bean Dip. If so, they endured a lot of head banging, loud rock and roll, and youthful nonsense while he played guitar with his brothers. Yet, they are in great shape.

Music is one of my favorite things and has been for as long as I can remember. When I was in grammar school, I would listen to the same songs over and over and then choreograph dance routines for my friends and me to perform for my family. There are plenty of stories of me singing "Born Free" at the top of my lungs while my family begged me to stop. Had headphones been as prevalent, and music as portable, then as now, I cannot imagine ever speaking to anyone. I would have retreated into my own little musical world eternally. So, I guess I do understand.

I agree with those who believe that music heals and gives flight. My children were born with music playing in the operating room - a small request made by me to my physicians - I selected the music. I am convinced they listen, feel and react differently because they are musical beings. I believe in Plato's, "Music is a more potent instrument than any for education, because rhythm and harmony find their way into the inward places of the soul." And I am with Casals, "Music is the divine way to tell beautiful, poetic things to the heart."

The music cannot be hollow noise, however, I believe you have to plug in and intentionally listen to feel the gift.

Warm blessings.

Today's Photo: Are you listening?



"Instead, be filled with the Holy Spirit, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs among yourselves, and making music to the Lord in your hearts. And give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ." Ephesians 5:18-20







EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 640
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Thursday, May 21, 2015

365 Project - Day 202

"Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter of your life is through" *

When I was a senior in high school I remember crying at the "last" everything. I'm not sure what got into me, but I know I drove my mother crazy. I was very active - there were a lot of lasts! It seemed the dirge was never ending and I had an endless flow of tears. I find it oddly comical now. I know my son will be sad about leaving his friends, but they seem more grounded in their departure than we were nearly 40 years ago.

At least they did until this moment I caught the other night at their Spring Choral Concert. I did not take many photos. It was hard to hold my camera and wipe my tears at the same time. However, when the whole group + alums fanned out to sing "A Parting Blessing" and I managed to dry up, I noticed a few tears shed by the singers.

This song is beautiful and painful. It reminds me of the song my youth group sang when I was a counselor, "Friends" by Michael W. Smith. We would sing this during our final Midweek Youth Group meeting each year as we said goodbye to our seniors. There would not be a dry eye by the end. Even my toughest teens would melt. It is a reminder of both the love we shared and a love that endures. I wish for both of my sons, friendships bonded by God.

The lighting during the concert was miserable, yellow, spotty and everyone seemed to be partly lit. What I like about this photo is the mood or the story, rather than the technique.

A Parting Blessing, by J. Jerome Williams
May the road rise to meet you;
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face.
May the rain fall soft upon your fields,
and until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of His hand.


Today's Photo: Forever Friends



"And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends"
* Friends, Michael W. Smith







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Wednesday, May 20, 2015

365 Project - Day 201

I spent the day in NYC as a chaperone for the choral / theatre group of 50 teenagers. The kids were good, but I am exhausted and so many muscles ache. When my recovering broken leg was at its end and the pain quite intense, I had to make a decision: focus on the pain or the purpose. I loved the idea of being in the city, experiencing the frenetic energy, helping out the school and spending time with my own teens and several others. There was something important to accomplish and, I could still walk. I chose to focus on my purpose.

We make hundreds of choices every day. The question is always what motivates to make those choices? Too often we are guided by fear and pain. Imagine if we made our choices based on hope, grace and abundance?

This tree remnant has been in our yard since we arrived 10 years ago. I am intrigued by the 3 deep vertical lines and overall shape. It adds character to the beauty in our garden, reminding us that though something may outgrow its initial purpose, it can be reclaimed for a new and beautiful future.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Reclaimed Beauty



"What is past is past ... Use wisely your power of choice.
Choose to love ... rather than hate.
Choose to laugh ... rather than cry.
Choose to create ... rather than destroy.
Choose to persevere ... rather than quit.
Choose to praise ... rather than gossip.
Choose to heal ... rather than wound.
Choose to give ... rather than steal.
Choose to act ... rather than procrastinate.
Choose to grow ... rather than rot.
Choose to pray ... rather than curse.
Choose to live ... rather than die."
From Og Mandino's The Greatest Miracle in the World








EXIF: Nikon D7100
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Tuesday, May 19, 2015

365 Project - Day 200

"There are only two ways to live life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." Albert Einstein

It is Day 200 and I have such an abundance of photographs that I lost track today, going backward and forward trying to decide precisely from which pool I was to draw today's photo, before discovering the answer. It is a wonderful problem, to be sure.

I see abundance and light in this photograph. Truly an overflow of both the light shining on the tomatoes and the fruit themselves. And, I am reminded that even when I don't feel like enough, I am. I'm feeling weighed down by my own expectations today.

The good news is that if I move forward confidently sharing the fullness of the blessings I have today, more abundance and light will be on it's way. So when it seems I don't even have enough for me, I will overflow with excess to generously share with others. How do I know?

"God can pour on his blessings in astonishing ways so that you're ready for anything and everything, more than just ready to do what needs to be done. As one psalmist puts it, He throws caution to the winds, giving to the needy in reckless abandon. His right-living, right-giving ways never run out, never wear out. This most generous God who gives seed to the farmer that becomes bread for your meals is more than extravagant with you. He gives you something you can then give away, which grows into full-formed lives, robust in God, wealthy in every way, so that you can be generous in every way, producing with us great praise to God." 2 Corinthians 9:8-11

Now, that is a word for me. And a blessing we can all savor, right?

Blessings ...

Today's Photo: Generous Abundance



"Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you." Isaiah 60:1






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Monday, May 18, 2015

365 Project - Day 199

"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:10

Sometimes I need to remind myself that we are, uniquely, the handiwork of God. Everything about us was designed for a purpose - from head to toe, inside and out. Every talent, every characteristic, and even every quirk is uniquely ours and purposeful. Stay true to His design.

Blessings!

Today's Photo: His Masterpiece



If
by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!









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Sunday, May 17, 2015

365 Project - Day 198

"All I have seen teaches me to trust the creator for all I have not seen." Ralph Waldo Emerson

I used to write "Happy Birthday" with a bar of soap on my sons' mirrors when they were younger. I thought it would be fun for them to awake in the morning with a cheerful message celebrating them. The writing was large with hearts and other cute drawings. My way of letting them know they were super special.

Likewise, at times, I have asked God to give me bold, clear messages. I would prefer something akin to a burning bush, a loud booming voice, or an indisputable miraculous occurrence (like a stick-snake-stick or water-wine thing). To be candid, my prayer ends something like this, "...so that I know that I am not schizophrenic!" You know, sort of just listening to tiny voices in my head and making stuff up as I go along. I would even settle for a soap message on my mirror, "My dear, here are your personal instructions for the next phase of your life. Follow these precise steps. XO God" Wouldn't that be awesome? So crisp, so clear. Perfect wisdom.

I have been reading a book in which the Devil makes a claim that he is a better salesman than God. And, our pastor mentioned in today's sermon that the enemy's voice is louder than God's because he stands at a distance and shouts. God, he said, is right by our side, whispering. But we don't always hear ("frantic, focused on negatives", etc) and when we do, I'm afraid we don't always listen.

Too often, when God says, "you know what to do," I hang on like this bird, bracing myself, contemplating the action, thinking and planning, running worst case scenarios and waiting for the perfect moment. And God's response is "Get on with it. People need what you have. I've got your back!" In fact, I heard that just this past week.

I believe the true disconnect is this: wisdom requires faith which requires action. Faith in action is how we illustrate the confident knowledge of who God wants us to be.

So, I'm ready to take off. Are you? If not, what are you waiting for? God is whispering.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: It's time to fly


"Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom...But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere." James 13, 17


ps - I awoke this morning to find this bird feeder missing. The hook had been broken and the feeder disappeared. I later found it 10 yards away, empty. I am baffled by what might have occurred in my gated garden last night.







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Saturday, May 16, 2015

365 Project - Day 197

"Spring and summer bring their beauty
and a special kind of peace.
Take a walk in God's creation.
It will bring a sweet release.
For nothing is more settling
as you walk this earthly sod
than to marvel at His wonders
as you gently talk with God."
- Nancy M. Wilcox

I took a few minutes to walk around my gardens late this afternoon and discovered there is magic in my garden.

For a home in a neighborhood, this is one busy place. It is intensely noisy. Birds are flying high, jumping from branch to branch and strutting about the walkways. Squirrels and chipmunks are everywhere. And when I stopped by the fence to photograph a chickadee on the bird feeder, I heard a small squeak by my feet. I approached a densely wooded area in the front of the house and while the birds flew above me, something rustled the leaves underneath. I stopped and turned around because I was, well, frightened.

In my beloved Japanese Maple, a new family is building a nest right next to my front door where tragedy occurred just yesterday. These birds are taking the ultimate care, nestling their home high in the tree, set deep in the heart of a mass of branches and leaves. I have found comfort in watching them chat at the curve in our walkway and teased my husband about the Mrs. sitting high while the Mr. muscles the branches apart to complete the nest. My husband's response was, "ahh yes, she is barking orders!" Touché. If that is how order is restored, so be it.

While there is much activity, what I enjoy most is the color this activity brings. A green hummingbird, yellow goldfinches, red cardinals, browns and shimmering blacks of the cowbirds, reds and browns of the sparrows and the surprise appearances of a bluejay every now and then.

I suppose it's possible my garden has always been this active and colorful and this spring is the first time I have taken the time to notice. I have let the rush of the day's activities keep me from experiencing the wonder of God's creation. This is far more than stopping to smell the roses and reaches farther than watching birds. It is a reminder to make God my priority, to take time for myself and to listen deeply to the voices of my family. The blessing in return has been clearly promised.

Best wishes!

Today's Photos: The Blessings of a Backyard Gardener




"Yes, walk and talk with Jesus.
He will heal your troubled heart.
in His goodness and His mercy,
strength to you He will impart.
When your way is getting weary
and heavy steps you trod.
Take a walk in the springtime
while you gently talk with God."
From "Walk and Talk with Him" by Nancy M Wilcox



365 Project - Day 196 Part II

It pains me to report that the robins' nest is empty.

Two baby robins hatched a few days ago. My husband in his infinite wisdom set up a ladder with a remote video camera. I thought he was crazy to disturb their privacy, but he promised he was careful to set up the environment while the robins were away. We have enjoyed watching the adult robins warm the eggs and feed the newborns. It has been a beautiful sight. And I have grown to adore this family.

Yesterday morning I went out to take a quick look from a distance, rather than watch on the camera feed. I noticed the nest was empty, but just assumed the Mr. & Mrs. were off getting food. An incident had happened a short while earlier that I texted to my husband, but thought nothing more about it until this morning.

Something told me I should watch the camera feed. This morning's feed showed an empty nest. No baby chicks, no adults. I couldn't imagine what had happened, so I watched backward. We have 2 cameras covering 2 different areas, so the exercise was frustrating. I watched many feeds, the pool guys driving up twice - still can't figure out why they headed to the front of the house?? I watched several where the mother robin stared into the empty nest, restlessly sat in it, turning and turning, and adjusting only to become anxious and fly away. And others where the male robin would fly to the edge, poke around the empty nest and fly away. I could not understand.

I finally found a stream with both the baby chicks and mother in the nest at 7:00 yesterday morning. She fed them, flew away, returned and sat on them to keep them warm. Everything seemed quite normal. I fast forwarded to another stream and the nest was empty. I went through this exercise until I found the very last family video. I worried then that I might see the mother eat her young, because one of the eggs hatched late and that chick seemed a bit listless. However, when I went to the next video, I was horrified. I screamed, curled into a fetal position and cried. My husband came downstairs sure I had fallen down the stairs and broken my leg again. I cursed him for setting up the video stream.

As a reminder, the nest is built on my front door under an arch. It is in a tight and highly protected space. Mr. & Mrs. chose the best space at the time. I think. We've tried to protect them from all manner of manmade tragedies. Yet, we did know how to save them from nature.

As I type this, I am still crying. I feel for the mother who just wanted to ensure her babies had what they needed. She flew away from her safe home to get food and a moment later a large hawk swooped in and took her babies.

Yesterday, I was sitting on our back deck reading and watching the birds. I felt a stirring to look up and saw a low flying hawk. Here's what I texted to my husband: "Giant bird just flew away with mid-sized animal. Dog, cat, squirrel?? Animal kingdom!"

I was flippant. I didn't know he had my babies. Interestingly, there are a lot more adult robins in my garden this morning. All shapes and sizes are here for a visit. The beauty of their presence is a delight. We honor, find peace and move forward.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

Blessings!

Today's Photo: Peace
(this is a Day 196 photo - I could not bring myself to post an empty nest)



From On The Pulse of Morning by Maya Angelou

Lift up your eyes upon
The day breaking for you.
Give birth again
To the dream.

Women, children, men,
Take it into the palms of your hands.
Mold it into the shape of your most
Private need. Sculpt it into
The image of your most public self.
Lift up your hearts.
Each new hour holds new chances
For new beginnings.
Do not be wedded forever
To fear, yoked eternally
To brutishness.

The horizon leans forward,
Offering you space to place new steps of change.
Here, on the pulse of this fine day
You may have the courage
To look up and out upon me,
The rock, the river, the tree, your country.
No less to Midas than the mendicant.
No less to you now than the mastodon then.

Here on the pulse of this new day
You may have the grace to look up and out
And into your sister's eyes,
Into your brother's face, your country
And say simply
Very simply
With hope
Good morning.









EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 800
280mm
f4
1/125s




Friday, May 15, 2015

365 Project - Day 196

I had an epiphany today while I was blowing drying my hair. In my world, you just never know when they will come and I often cannot distinguish between my own creative, crazy imaginings and divine intervention. I suspect, though, someone might suggest that perhaps, the two are one, with the latter supplanting the former. I'm too tired to share the epiphany today. So, I offer this instead:

"My experience has taught me that a man is never quite so near success as when that which he calls 'failure' has overtaken him, for it is on occasions of this sort that he is forced to think. if he thinks accurately, and with persistence, he discovers that so-called failure usually is nothing more than a signal to re-arm himself with a new plan or purpose. Most real failures are due to limitations which men set up in their own minds. If they had the courage to go one step further, they would discover their error."
Andrew Carnegie as discussed with Napoleon Hill

The courage to move forward, I would submit, requires choosing faith over fear.

I choose faith.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Faith Over Fear



"Be careful what you set your heart upon, for it surely shall be yours." James A. Baldwin






EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 250
100mm
f6.7
1/20s

Thursday, May 14, 2015

365 Project - Day 195

I'm working to find ways to stretch myself with minimal tools. I am not interested in dragging out a lot of equipment. I'm just trying to keep things simple and learn through that simplicity. I, once again, tortured my son to oblige me with a quick headshot session. I tried explaining that I needed a new photograph for his graduation party invitations. He immediately recognized this as a ploy and said I should use any one of the headshots I have taken during the past year. Undeterred, I begged. I promised I would not take up more than 15 minutes of his time. In the end, he granted me 5 minutes before he had to rush out for work. At that point, I truly was stretching myself.

I wanted to take the shots outdoors in the late afternoon sun. Most of my headshots have been in an indoor studio. I quickly selected two locations in our back garden - one with the sun behind him and this one against the brick fireplace chimney. Despite the speedy session, we walked away with a couple of decent photographs. This portrait is his personal favorite. I wasn't sure I would like the shadows, but they add a nice dramatic dimension to the photo.

Our hurriedness forced me to choose what was most important in the moment. I did not have the time to concern myself with everything. I had to narrow my focus to light, framing and expression. Three things. Whatever else was happening or may normally have been important to me, fell away. Looking back, shedding the weight of anxiety about all else was liberating. Creating an intensity on the 3 critical aspects of his photos allowed me to capture his best. And, took my concept of simplification to a new level.

My wisdom from this moment is that my best requires deeper focus coupled with less effort.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Simple Intensity



"The blessing of the Lord brings wealth, without painful toil for it." Proverbs 10:22







EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 200
50mm
f/4.8
1/1000s


Wednesday, May 13, 2015

365 Project - Day 194

IMHO, there is a lot right with this photo and a lot wrong with it. I love the light and lightness, the vibrant colors, the textures and the lines. But it is a failed execution.

I am forcing myself to exert control in making photographs in a ridiculously small space, When the environment works well, it works exceptionally well. On the other hand, the small space forces me frame the photo in camera, carefully ensuring that all distractions are removed, with nothing close enough to alter white balance and with all elements properly exposed.

I believed I had taken photos where I adapted for the errors in this photograph. My adjusted photos, however, created a new set of problems, leaving this flawed one as the best. I clipped the right side of the flower; I overexposed the leaf on the right; I missed the wall outlet. It is a failure. However, I love the central part of the flower. The part that is good, exceeds the part that is not. So, I choose to learn from this exercise, rather than trash it.

"Every adversity brings with it the seed of an equivalent advantage." Napoleon Hill. We each ultimately make the choice to see our failures in a positive or negative light. We choose to learn, grow, shift and change with the opportunities created by the failure or shrink and quit.

This flower is from one of my Mother's Day bouquets. My eldest son used to fret and cry over each mistake he made. Not because I chastised him, but because of some misguided sense that at the age of 10 he should inherently know how to succeed. I remember telling him several times, "if you never make a mistake, how will you understand how to do something correctly. This is how you learn the right way." As I release him into the world, one wish I have for him is that he pushes himself to try harder, fail more, learning from each failure. For the seeds of greatness lie within those failures.

If you knew that your failures were a blessing and key to your success, how would that change your perspective?

psst - "God is not as concerned about our comfort as he is about our purpose." Joel Osteen

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Imperfect Lily Photograph



"Success usually is but one short step beyond the point where one quits fighting." Napoleon Hill







EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 400
70mm
f19
1/8s

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

365 Project - Day 193

When I retired a year ago, my first big project was my garden. I thought, what do retired people do? The first thing that came to mind was "work in the garden." As with all things, I jumped in with gusto. I quickly planned my gardens, organized my tools and acquired 70 plants. I instructed my husband not to get involved, notifying him that I would be digging the holes, tilling the soil, fertilizing, planting, watering and caring for my new project entirely on my own. Needless to say, I was, as always, overzealous!

I had no reference and, therefore, no real imagination with which to visualize holes twice as wide and twice as deep, as I carried each plant and bush from my SUV. With each shovel and heave-ho, I grew less and less ambitious, eventually begging my husband to dig new holes while I tarried about. I can still vividly remember working the section of the garden where these purple phlox pictured below are planted. I toiled for days and then planted these tiny delicate plants in the rain, knowing as the skies darkened and the rain intensified that my efforts were futile. My husband graciously covered the bed with a tarp, but by the end of the downpour the garden was a mud marsh.

As summer wore on, the phlox plants bore few leaves, looked weak and listless. Not at all resembling the lovely light, airy dedicate plants I was so excited to purchase from the nursery. By mid-Fall, there was nothing left and with a broken leg, I had no interest in caring for them. Frankly, I haven't given my gardens much thought during this never-ending winter until now.

Now, I am stunned at the rebirth and resilience of these plants. This is truly astonishing. Not only am I witnessing their Lazarus effect, but they are vibrant and flourishing beyond their prior state. They are no longer light and airy. There is beauty, depth, growth and strength. These plants have an altogether new life! In the photograph, you can see new blossoms unfolding. And, where I planted a single stalk, multiples have risen. After a long [unpleasant] winter's rest, the phlox have come alive redefined, reinvigorated, renewed, resilient.

Now that's something to emulate!

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: True Spring Rebirth



"Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life the Lord has promised to those who love him." James 1:12






EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 320
70mm
f9.5
1/750

Monday, May 11, 2015

365 Project - Day 192

The squirrels are making me crazy. They have broken the birds' favorite feeder. (Yes I have 2 feeders and a water bottle!) I was distraught earlier today when I discovered the feeder in the photograph below on the ground in pieces. I tried reassembling, worked hard to put it back together with birds circling above my head and swooping past me anxiously awaiting the morning's feed. By midday, however, the squirrels were back on this feeder, snapping it in two. Score 1 point for the squirrels.

Tomorrow, I have 2 new feeders arriving which are supposed to be squirrel-proof. I am worried that squirrel-proof also means the birds won't like them much, but I have new food coming as well. The challenge is that the new food is fruit and nuts, presumably quite tasty for the squirrels and these squirrels are scary-smart.

When not troubled by squirrels, I enjoy the early morning flurry of bird activity. Just like a gathering of family and friends, the birds come and go in a noisy parade. There is no anxiety. Just agreeable coming and going. Larger birds, like cowbirds, are starting to appear, but they seem comfortable at the other feeder and the smaller birds stay closer to this one.

"I have learned that to be with those I like is enough." Walt Whitman

One of the things I enjoy about the photo below is the simple sense of being together. Imagine that taking the time to be present, experiencing life together is important and is enough. Too often we bear the weight of many burdens that either keep us away from family and friends or distract us from being truly in the moment. What would that moment feel like free of burdens and fully present to breathe in the fulness of love and life and grace? That moment is an intentional gift of joy. Vaporizing burdens is difficult on your own - try relinquishing them into the Master's care.

Blessings.

Today's Photo: Meet me at the diner for breakfast!



"When I said, 'My foot is slipping,' your unfailing love, Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy."Psalm 94:18-19







EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 640
210mm
f4.8
1/1000s


Sunday, May 10, 2015

365 Project - Day 191

Happy Mother's Day!

"Life began with waking up and loving my mother's face." George Elliot

I had organized and planned a new still life for today's photo. As I looked through my daily photographs, however, the photo below stood out as the best of the day. As this project is designed to select the very best, I had to forego my planned still life.

Quite a nice surprise that the female Downy Woodpecker rose to the top on Mother's Day. I do love this photograph. I rarely find the females in our garden. Though, the woodpeckers are beginning to travel as families more often lately. Many of my backyard birds arrive in pairs, but the woodpeckers seem to come in groups these days. They eat, chat and play. Watching the woodpecker family enjoy their time in the garden is delightful.

The woodpecker family dynamic reminds me of my own. I catch a couple frolicking about amongst the trees, flying together in a moment of frenzy, much like my children wrestling. I see fathers gathering at the feeder for a long meal. And, as in the photograph below, I see a mother intensely working alone.

"The family is one of nature's masterpieces." George Santayana

Today I honor my mother as full of grace, love, intelligence, strength, wit, courage and Christ. A fantastic guardian, provider and champion on this journey. I am eternally grateful for the gift of all that she is and has been. She is forever love.

Today's Photo: A Mother's Work


" 'Honor your father and mother' - which is the first commandment with a promise - 'so that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth.' " Ephesians 6:2-3






EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 400
280mm
f/4
1/180s

Saturday, May 9, 2015

365 Project - Day 190

"That's the difference between me and the rest of the world! Happiness isn't good enough for me! I demand euphoria!" Bill Watterson

I am exhausted. That exhaustion is due to a combination of stress and pure tiredness. Yesterday, we celebrated my son's 18th birthday. Rather than a grand celebration at home, I anguished over a trip into the city for dinner and theater with some of his closest friends. I worked all the planning and suffered all the worrying. And, if I am completely honest with myself, my ambition was to deliver a euphoric experience for my son and his friends. Not over the top, but a whole lot of fun!

In these situations, I find myself worrying, carrying far more anxiety than is necessary. I pray for God's blessings and grace and still I am restless, never really letting go. Such that by the time evening twilight arrives the following the next day, I am drenched in fatigue.

I believe I have an important lesson to learn from 2 perspectives. The first aligns with the photo below. I took this just after sunset using only the last remaining natural light through the window. I wanted to understand the effects of the slightest evening light. Could I salvage that light as a source of energy to create a unique and worthy photograph?

The second, similarly, before I exhaust all of my strength, I must let go and let God. Asking for his assistance and not allowing it is a silly way to live. Imagine instead if I could reclaim my own strength by letting His light create a unique and worthy image through me.

Blessings.

Today's Photo: Twilight Fruit



"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30






EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 400
50mm
f5.6
8s

Friday, May 8, 2015

365 Project - Day 189

"As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being." Carl Jung

I love tomatoes. I'm pretty sure I have loved them since I was a small child. I can vividly remember eating ketchup sandwiches outdoors in the warm California sunshine when I was in second grade. Oh the joy!

IMHO, there are only a few things better than a perfect tomato. They are rich in color and taste, plump and juicy. Delightful to eat alone and a wonderful complement to other foods. In fact, as good as they are alone, they are a vital ingredient in enhancing the flavor of other dishes. Making them even stronger as an additive.

How many things do you know that are so perfect on their own, yet greatly improve the texture and content of other things when they are a simple addition? What if our role is not to just be good, but to use what gifts we have to simply better the quality of something else?

Now there's something to think about.

Best wishes.

Today's Photo: The Perfect Complement


" 'How can we have more, Jacob?' And, Jacob Answered. 'The only way I can take a breath is by releasing my breath. In order to be more, I must be willing to be less.' " Noah benShea, from Jacob the Baker

"Much is required from those whom much is given, for their responsibility is greater." Luke 12:48






EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 200
280mm
f4
1/14

Thursday, May 7, 2015

365 Project - Day 188

"If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain."
– Emily Dickinson

When I came upon this Emily Dickinson poem today, I stopped to breathe it in. Two events seemed to converge in a single poem: my 36 hour social media frenzy tied to the Give Local America campaign and the robins nesting on my front door. I suppose one could stretch the latter to my growing obsession over feeding the birds in my garden.

I feel this increasing sense of hope and joy, peace and balance as I tend to these birds, while ensuring I don't become like the "feed the birds" woman in Mary Poppins! The good news is battling the squirrels, ravens and gnats is keeping me from losing my edge.

We are now 100% certain the robins are nesting on our front door. I took a peek the other day. I know Mrs. Robin is tiny in the photo - I did not want to disturb her.

Should I be concerned about the health of my trees now that I have two types of woodpeckers hanging out? These typically anti-social birds, are homing in more everyday.

IMHO - If you're in need of a more peaceful existence, try one of these paths. The first is to help someone, as Ms. Dickinson says, if you can ease one life from aching, you will not have lived in vain. The second is to hang with the birds, they will alter your psyche. And either or both will bring you hope.

Blessings.

Today's Photos: Hope!





“Hope” is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops - at all -
-Emily Dickinson

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

365 Project - Day 187

The other day I happened upon New York Times Columnist David Brooks' website, The Road to Character. He has recently published a new book with the same title and the website invites visitors along a character journey. A wonderful short Ted Talk is also included on the website. Mr. Brooks references Rabbi Joseph Soloveitchik’s Lonely Man of Faith and the presence of an Adam I and Adam II in each of us. Adam I is our external self, focused on high status, worldly ambitions and success; while Adam II is our internal self, focused on our morality, humility and love. They argue that these two Adams are in a perpetual battle and, naturally, society favors Adam I forcing us to neglect Adam II.

I agree that most, if not all us, will (sooner or later) find we are living with this clear disconnect between Adam I and Adam II, where we've been unsuccessful in fusing our deepest inner selves with the external creature the world has asked us to become. I experienced this in my own life. I had achieved great success, but I increasingly wanted success explicitly tied to my more giving internal self, designed to make a difference. I believe if your work is aligned with your purpose, the two can be fused to exist without conflict. I also now know that my Adam II was refusing to be denied any longer.

Much like using my son's new macro lens allows me to move in close to take a deeper look at an object, I had to explore deeper within to understand my battle and why. Why wasn't the success I was experiencing enough? I fought this battle for several years, repeatedly convincing myself that success was indeed enough. However, I was not making the "humility shift" David Brooks discusses as central to the journey he refers to as The Road to Character.

I recommend reading this article, David Brooks' The Moral Bucket List.

Best Wishes!

Today's Photo: The Journey



“Nothing that is worth doing can be achieved in our lifetime; therefore we must be saved by hope.

Nothing which is true or beautiful or good makes complete sense in any immediate context of history; therefore we must be saved by faith.

Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone; therefore we must be saved by love.

No virtuous act is quite as virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as it is from our standpoint. Therefore we must be saved by the final form of love which is forgiveness.” Reinhold Niebuhr







EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 200
70mm (Sigma 17-70 f2.8-4 Macro)
f4
1/350

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

365 Project - Day 186

"Give, but give until it hurts." Mother Theresa

Today is Give Local America - National Giving Day! A few days ago, one of the nonprofit organizations with whom I work asked for my assistance in final marketing preparations for today's events. It was a terrific opportunity for me to learn more about Give Local America and to set aside dedicated time to pull together 7-8 ideas for an organization I am devoted to helping. While they are not active on social media, the Give Local teams are and I promised I would do my part to drum up support with my small circle of friends on Facebook and Twitter. Watching the excitement around today's giving has been exhilarating. Giving feels great!

During dinner this evening, I asked my teen boys to join me in participating by each giving $10 to a charitable organization of their choosing. They looked up Give Local Greater Waterbury & Litchfield Hills, our local organization on their individual computers, immediately went to the Arts & Culture category and both chose to give to the Waterbury Palace Theatre. Later this month, my older son will walk his first red carpet at the Palace Theatre as a finalist in the Connecticut Student Film Festival. For the past few years, we have been to the Palace Theatre to celebrate our Newtown High School (NHS) Drama Group's participation in the CT High School Musical Theatre Awards (CTHSMTA) and my son joined his NHS colleagues and Broadway stars at the Palace Theatre in 2013 for From Broadway with Love - A Benefit Concert for Sandy Hook. The Palace Theatre has and continues to play a central role in our artistic lives. It is a beautiful theatre and we are fortunate to enjoy it so often.

I took the photo below during the Regional Center for the Arts (RCA) production of Titanic. We had several friends performing in the show. RCA is always one of the favorites for the upcoming CTHSMTA. This was my first time seeing one of their shows. Their theatre is small and intimate, allowing me to use just my "nifty fifty" lens. And, the kids were fantastic.

Today's Photo: The Gift of the Arts


"No one has ever become poor by giving." Anne Frank





EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 400
50mm
f2.4
1/90




Monday, May 4, 2015

365 Project - Days 184, 185

I am combining two 365 Posts:

The Accidental Birdist.

That's the name I've chosen for myself. I believe it sounds much nicer than "bird woman", the name my husband has taken to calling me. I'm writing this blog while sitting outside. In this way, I am sure not to miss details of this new wonder. Some might say that all the time I spent locked inside may be the issue. Between breaking my leg the morning of October 30th and the never-ending winter, I have been virtually indoors, Vitamin D-less and without fresh air and sunshine for any sustainable period of time for 1/2 a year. That's crazy!

I've grown comfortable spending several hours a day outside watching the birds, spotting rabbits and chipmunks and chasing squirrels. I have learned that country life can be as noisy as city streets. The birds, animals and insects create a cacophony of sounds that can be both exhilarating and frightening. I have listened to daily chatter, happy singing, soft cooing and urgent cries. I have even watched squirrels bark. And, with that I am witness to a new awakening and appreciation within me.

I've learned birds generally have a sense of abundance far different from our unwavering human sense of scarcity. The birds do not fight over who gets to eat at the feeder, when. They are patient, eating off the ground or grabbing a bite and chewing while perched on a nearby branch. There are some which delight in a long dining session at the feeder, but all shove off when necessary. The only altercation I have seen are birds of the same family playing (or fighting), nothing between different bird types. And, despite the fact that I am uptight about squirrels eating all of the bird seed, the birds seem to be far less annoyed.

I have to pause for a moment about the squirrels - they are like the devil. Smart, cunning, patient, persistent, acrobatic and fully devoted to destroying the feeders. We have done everything to keep the squirrels away. They have overcome all obstacles including jumping a 4 foot vertical to reach the bird feeder when they could not climb down from the top. I will not, however, let them ruin this for me.

Here, I sense balance and harmony. The cardinals arrive in pairs, if Mr. Cardinal is near, the Mrs. is not far behind. The titmice and woodpeckers normally travel in noisy pairs. Mr. Robin is not a big flier. He plays it safe as he has a family on the way. Most of the time, I find him skirting the edges of the garden. I know Mrs. Robin is tending to eggs in the nest at our front door. The dove also isn't much of a flier, but he's a beast. The nuthatches come and stay awhile and the sparrows are playful. This afternoon, as the gnats and mini-bugs appear, the time is not quite as fun, but I am still enjoying the birds.

I have identified 10 small bird varieties feeding in our yard in just a few days time. Crows, ravens, turkey vultures and other larger birds are starting to also appear in my humble garden. Here's what I know so far: American Robin, Northern Cardinal, Downy Woodpecker, Tufted Titmouse, Black Capped Chickadee, Chipping Sparrow, American Goldfinch, White Breasted Nuthatch, Mourning Dove and an Eastern Bluebird (though he didn't stay to eat). If you're interested, I used National Geographic's Backyard Bird Identifier.

One day, this will end and I will be working too hard to find time to enjoy a day of birding. For now, I am thankful the titmice have come back to sing a pre-dinner song.

Best wishes!

Today's Photos: The Accidental Birdist

Female Northern Cardinal:


Male White-Breasted Nuthatch:


“Sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment.”
― Rumi, Masnavi i Man'avi, the spiritual couplets of Maula

Saturday, May 2, 2015

365 Project - Day 183

Birds! Despite my husband's declaration that my bird seed choice was a bad one, they finally arrived. While the birds seemed tentative at first, they stayed nevertheless. Several different types of birds enjoyed the seed throughout the day with some staying for awhile or returning off and on. It was a nice treat. I had a great birding day!

I am reminded that anxiety and worry while waiting is unnecessary. God is at work on His plan, His timing is perfect and He always shows up right on time. Our role is to be patient, maintain hope and use our time and skills wisely while we await Him.

This was one of my favorite photographs of the day. This bird flying in reminds me of both the abundance and the arrival of God.

Blessings!

Today's Photo: Right on Time!


"Be like the bird, that pausing in her flight awhile on boughs too slight, feels them give way beneath her and yet sings, knowing that she hath wings." Victor Hugo







EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 320
280mm
f4
1/1500


Friday, May 1, 2015

365 Project - Day 182

The Robins have nested! We think. No one is allowed in the front yard, so we can't be 100% sure. My husband peeked around the corner and saw the mother sitting in the nest. We assume an egg was laid. He learned that they leg an egg every day and in 2 weeks they will hatch. I am like a mother hen. I anxiously await the arrival of these new babies.

With the weather warming up, I decided to fill our bird feeder, sit out side, enjoy the weather and capture photos of birds as they munched the food I provided. My husband told me I would find seed in the one grocery store aisle I never venture in, the pet aisle. I had no idea! And, there were so many varieties from which to choose. Having no clue how to properly select bird seed, I chose a pretty label described as attracting exotic birds. After we filled and hung the bird feeder, my husband suggested I relax since it would take a few hours for word to spread that new seed was available.

My patience did not last. I waited one hour and went outdoors. It was such a pleasure to have warmish weather. Well, truth be told, it was crisp (in British terms). I wore long underwear, sweatpants, a hooded sweatshirt and added a blanket, but the sun was shining.

While waiting, I did a little thinking, a little praying, a little napping. What I did not do, was photograph a bird. Several hours of waiting patiently and not a single bird showed. It was frustrating and I was cold. My husband thought I started too late in the day. "Birds eat early in the morning," he said. "You need to get up at the crack of dawn." Yet by 9AM the next morning my husband had declared my bird food a poor choice. So much for pretty packaging and exotic food!

I've had a lot of time to think about that bird-less day and have come to understand waiting in a new light. Waiting and waiting periods are important moments of growth. Too often, we want to move from the beginning to the end without a growth period in between. Yet, if we will use the time, that delay can deliver a dramatically strengthened outcome. The time I spent that first day, without the birds, allowed me to pause and reflect on what I knew about bird photography; make appropriate adjustments to both my camera and my lens; rethink my focus and how that related to the composition of my shots; get more comfortable with the birding modus operandi. Most importantly, it provided me time alone with God.

We must reimagine our wait time. Think of that time, whether we are waiting for God, love, jobs, Fridays, money or perfection, not as blank spaces or desperate delays, but as gold; rare gifts where growth prepares and strengthens us for the goal.

Best wishes!

Today's Photo: Prepared


"Biblically speaking, waiting is not just something we have to do to get what we want. Waiting is part of the process of becoming what God wants us to be." John Ortberg





EXIF: Nikon D7100
ISO 250
230mm
f4
1/1500s